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My bunnies. Hooray for hardly getting any sweets for bunny day. Chocolate is irresistable.
My bunny ears were a lovely zombiegreen.
I haven’t seen this movie in ages… I might get it out this weekend. Great film.
Can we please just all take a moment and think about how snails are the cUTEST FUCKING THING I HAVE EVER SEEN. HOLY SHIT.
march of the noot noots
——Have you all not seen the terrifying gif of the snail nomming a worm? It’s frightening. ahhaha. They are sooooo adorable and sweet with their little itty bitty antennas. It turns out that snails are pretty badass. I had no idea until recently, that some of them look like something out of a 1950’s B horror film. Pretty awesome!
Important semi life altering [appearance[ decision….
…. after years of feeling embarassed and self conscious about this stupid patch of freckles I have on my fucking neck, I have made the important decision to get my neck tattooed. I have endured over 20 years of stupid ‘Is that a hickey?’ jokes. I spend Summers in Hellish heatwaves, hiding under my hair. I cannot put my hair up when I am out in public, no matter how hot it gets outside. I have had to cut all the hair underneath at the back [nape] to ease the tourturous heat my thick hair causes. I am going to have to go without alot of things, to get this tattoo done. I hate being so, well, living mi vida broka…. permanently. C’est la vie. Back to plain old English ….. I have my hair dyed a gorgeous bloody red and it is quickly coming off/out and going pink [ew!] but I will have to tough it out. I cannot possibly take another Summer of being obsessed with keeping my neck buried/hidden. I can’t do it. I have enough other things that bother me, that have to be accepted. This, this I can change. I have almost decided on a final design . I haven’t been tattooed since 2012 and it’s driving me mad. My tattoo artist friend drew up my perfect/dream pinup tattoo to go on my forearm, part of my Halloween sleeve. I am supposed to get her inked next. I want to, I fucking LOVE the design. It is perfect. I would get both right away if I could. My nerves and anxiety/depression have hit all time highs in the last few years and I have taken solace, found comfort in collecting reborn baby dolls [don’t judge me, I don’t care if you think it’s mental!]. In so doing I have not been able to get my pinup done. I feel awful for having the pinup good to go and having put it off for so long. I have a very limited income. I wish I could be ‘normal’ in the sense that I would love to be able to have a freaking source of income that I could actually do things with but that was not in the cards for me… Anyhow, no pity party. I have decided I HAVE to get my neck tattooed within the next month or so. Before it gets too hot out and I am trapped in my hair fort for another Hellish Summer. I am plus sized, don’t like it, I don’t give a Fuck. I don’t care what people I don’t love think of me. I care what I think of me, what my man thinks of me. I accept myself but not this fucking blight on my neck. Anyhow, I am ranting…. I am getting my neck tattooed. I doubt anyone would donate to a ”help a chick get ink fund’ hahah so I won’t even jokingly make a gofundme page. Nobody reads my stuff anyhow…meh…. I am basically blogging for myself, I guess…. Fuck it.
SNAILS EAT WORMS
why yes they do
and it’s fucking terrifying
Bloody Hell! That is disturbing. I have held many many many snails in my lifetime. I used to love holding them and watching them when I was a kid. Hell, I still do whenever I find one. I have always found them to be so adorable with their little antennas. It never once crossed my mind that their mouth was like——that! What the Fuck was that? It’s like something out of a horror-sci fi film from the 50’s! I am suddenly finding them even more fascinating, mainly because they are now not only adorable, they are bad ass alien type beings. How freaky! I wonder what sea snails’ mouths look like. Gary Snail has always been one of my favourite cartoon characters. I have always wished they made huge plushies of him. [never found one]. I wonder if he is that terrifying when he eats living things? hahaha .Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? Pink, polka dotted and terrifying is he. hahhahaha
I am without actual internet at a time when I need it most. Night time. Calming distraction from the chaos in my mind. All I can do is text …no wifi. Staying w my 90 yr old Nana who is a nervous wreck herself. Looking fwd to tomorrow. My bff and her 7 mo old daughter aka my niece, are joining us here for lunch. I hate being away from my cat, Hunter, at night. He is happy n safe at home w my father, not worried about him at all. It’s me I am worried about. Time to doodle n colour I guess. I suck at it but it calms me. Hopefully this goes through. Not used to not having wifi.
Say hello to my little friends! *lol* I have insomnia… rearranging random things to pass time. Definitely going to rearrange these again… I don’t like them like this. Haha.. soooo tired. *yawns*
Forgot to post this in February. Gifts from my ♥ .
HERE is the DIFFERENCE. So many people get so confused. Difference between having anxiety and having an anxiety disorder.
Having social anxiety suuuucks… It rules your life whether you want it to or not. It drives me up the wall when people make jokes about having anxiety when all they have is regular everyday stress.
Mermaid hair hahhaha
I was out running errands today. I was feeling kind of down so I put a bit of makeup on to cheer myself up. Fast forward to the dollar store. I was in there alone, anxiety issues makes that not as simple as it sounds to ‘normal’ people. Anyhow, I was looking at craft supplies [going to stay with Nana for a few days and hoping to get her to create something]. [she is 90 and has dementia] Suddenly I hear this little girl ”Wow, mermaid hair. Mommy, she has hair like Ariel.”…. haha.. Awhhh… She was about 3 at the most. A wee bit later, same little girl ”Your red mermaid hair is so pretty. I want my hair like that”… her mother smiled at me, took her daughters hand and said ”No you don’t” hahaha….. A little while later in the grocery store with my Dad, trying to find things that I can make for my Nana’s meals for the next few days. Again, very busy and crowded and my anxiety was building. Again, a little girl. ”I love your hair. It’s like Ariel’s. I have red hair too. I hope it gets as red as yours when I get older.” hahah.. Awhhh, this little girl was shopping with her mother and her grandmother and was actually a natural redhead. I smiled and said thank you and added ”Your natural red hair is very pretty.”…. She was very polite. ”Thank you,I hope it gets redder,like yours and Ariel’s.” and we said our goodbyes adn I turned to see my Dad laughing ”I take it back, Chick. Your hair doesn’t look insane. Apparently it looks Disney. Seeing as you carry on conversations with the cat and every creature you see, it does seem fitting.” hahahhaa….. I do talk to my cat and to squirrels and what not hahaha. I just always have… Meh. I may have spikes in my lip and a ring in my nose but little kids know who is Disney deep down ahhaha….